Musings from a day off...

So, it's my day off. Obviously, I guess, or I wouldn't have titled this post what I did. :p

I'm sitting here in my armchair, watching bad TV, trying to type around a cat on my lap, feeling my baby move, and thinking.

The thinking seems related to both the cat, and the baby.

I'm sure that most of you know that I've got 2 cats. Rhea, and Gemini (fondly known as Gemi). They're both SPCA kitties, and we got them about a year apart. When we first got them, Rhea seemed to have chosen me as her person, and then when Gemi came along, she chose Duncan as hers. In the last 20 weeks or so (since we found out that I'm pregnant) that seems to be changing.

Gemi has decided that I'm not allowed to be anywhere by myself. If I'm in the living room on the armchair, she's either on the couch or in her little kitty box by the kitchen door. If I go into the kitchen for a drink, or a snack, she follows me in there, and howls at me until I go back to the living room to sit down. If I have a bath, she comes into the bathroom and lies on the bathmat (well, on my clothes or my housecoat, or the towel...) until I get out. If I go downstairs to get something out of the second fridge, or the freezer, or the laundry room, she follows me and howls around my ankles until I'm back upstairs and sitting down again.

The cats used to sleep together on the bed, curled up by Duncan's feet. Now it's just Gemi for the most part, and she doesn't sleep at the bottom much. She usually sleeps between us, curled up mostly on the body pillow that we've bought (it makes it much easier for me to actually get any sleep), and partly on whichever one of us happens to be warmer. If we let her, she'd be sleeping between our pillows, but we discourage that as much as we can. Considering the fact that we're, you know... SLEEPING! *chuckles* Honestly, Gemi's kinda become a bully, but I wonder if she's doing it cause she's trying to be protective... Though when it comes down to it, I'd much rather have teeny Rhea jump on me in the middle of the night than giant-size Gemi!

Be right back... Need to find a DVD to watch... The selection on TV is awful!
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Sorry, decided I should get something to eat while I was up.

The baby. I've been feeling the baby move a lot, and I feel the time pass until my due date even more. It's exciting, and it's scary, and the changes that I've been seeing in myself (mostly my body), are just as scary and exciting, and kinda depressing. I've been having a hard time getting used to it all, really.

Mostly, at least so far, I've been having a hard time getting used to the change in my size. I've never been one to be very interested in my looks, but now that I don't look the way I used to, I find that I miss them. And my body feels different from inside than it used to. And it's changed the way I move; I can't do things that I'm used to doing. I'm tired, and I have indigestion, and my sinuses are almost constantly congested. Don't get me wrong... I'm excited to be pregnant, but physically, I've been rather uncomfortable. I feel ungainly, and unattractive, and some days, it really gets me down.

The funny thing is, all the weight I've gained is straight out in front of me. I have a round little belly, but from behind, I look pretty much exactly as I always have. I haven't gained weight in my face or my hands or my feet. Just out in front.

Well, I don't really know where this post is going, or what else I want to say, so for now, I think I'll go eat some lunch. It's been sitting beside me for almost an hour! *chuckles*